DAY 6: WHAT AM I AFRAID OF?
Well how long do you have, cause this could get REALLY real, really quickly. For the sake of my soul and yours, I will try and keep this short and sweet!
I suppose I’m like everyone else in that I’m afraid of failure and disappointing the ones that I love; in my experience it’s VERY easy to do both. I mean, don’t get me wrong; I don’t make a habit of failing and disappointing others…but it’s life, it happens.
In regards to other (more normal/less emotional) things; I’m afraid of elevators and small spaces. I cannot deal, they make me crazy. The things I go through to avoid riding elevators (especially by myself) are next level. Honestly, it can’t be healthy. I’m also insanely afraid of cruise ships. There is something very disconcerting about being in the middle of the ocean with no land in sight, I just know that we’re gonna slam into that iceberg as soon as nightfall hits (I may have seen Titanic too many times). I can’t do it. I think it comes from my fear of drowning, which is interesting because I can swim like a fish. With that fear of drowning also comes my fear of flying over water. The first time I flew back home from LA I thought the pilot had made a mistake because when I glanced out the window all I saw was the Pacific Ocean, I kept thinking “oh my gosh, he went the wrong way, I got on the wrong plane and I’m on my way to Australia, my mother will never know where I am when we crash, I am going to die.” I know, that escalated quickly. Fortunately for me there was a very nice military man sitting beside me, he took pity on me and probably thought I was some form of special. He assured me that we were heading back to Atlanta and that we just had to fly out over the ocean because of the way the runway faces…I wanted to throw up, surprisingly though, I didn’t. I just buried my head in his chest and waited until I saw land. What a gem that man was, I wish I could send him a thank you card!
So what are you afraid of? Big things? Little things? Let me know below!