DAY 22: MY WORST HABITS
I feel like the majority of posts I’ve seen surrounding this prompt include only those “cutesy” bad habits that everyone has…you know, the ones that don’t make you seem THAT bad [i.e., eating too much junk food, drinking too much wine (in my case, coke) hating the gym, etc); however, considering I don’t regret eating junk food or my lack of enthusiasm surrounding the gym (I go to the gym, I just don’t like it), I will focus on a few habits that are less than charming.
TAKING A COMPLIMENT: I might be the world’s worst at this. I have always struggled with taking compliments; I don’t know why I can’t just say “thank you” and smile bashfully like everyone else…clearly I need to work on this. I always feel like I have to come back with something negative about myself to negate their statement…WHO DOES THIS??!! This is why I can’t have nice things. Ugh. My inability to hear and accept flattering remarks about myself probably have something to do with a deep-rooted self-esteem issue (I’m working on at too) that I’ve been holding onto for years…here’s to hoping that I can learn to love myself as much as everyone else does and say “Thank You” at the appropriate time.
BEING TOO INTROVERTED: For someone like me, being too introverted can be a problem. I love being at home; it’s so relaxing and comfortable, but it doesn’t allow me to get out of my own head. A few posts back I blogged about my eating disorder journey; I mentioned the “self loathing” piece of that disorder and how it is still plagues me to this day. This particular disorder (along with many others) feeds off of people not being able to get out of their own heads. It’s amazing the things I can cook up when I’m in such a dark place, I can assure you it’s the opposite of healthy and I need to do a better job of getting out and doing things to avoid the inevitable meltdown.
NEGATIVE SELF-TALK: I will admit that I have made considerable strides with this one; it’s a slow process but I assure you that progress is being made. Learning to forgive ourselves when we make a mistake is critical; if we don’t learn how to show ourselves grace, how can we expect others to do so? It doesn’t do us any favors to insult ourselves in our own heads, it just creates an immense amount of negativity that compromises our goals. Try and show yourselves some mercy when and if you make a mistake; I promise it will do more good than bad!
So those are a few of my bad habits. What are some things that you do that you wish you didn’t?